意識的影子

都去哪了
一片空幻

時間慢分

意識的影子稀疏

存在不在

又誰問

    The Shadow of Consciousness

Where have they all gone

an expanse of emptiness and illusion

Time lags

the shadows of consciousness grow sparse

Existence is absent

who asks, then

文明的垃圾時間

看到一則報導，討論垃圾時間和倒垃圾時間的正確英文用法。垃圾時間trash time是指籃球賽事中雙方勝負已定後剩下的時間，比喻無關緊要白費功夫。台灣城市的垃圾不落地倒垃圾時間則為Trash pickup time。一字之差，兩者意義截然不同。

令人驚訝的是，2026-2027的人類文明，正好應驗這兩個time。

倒垃圾是積極主動的除舊佈新，是為新生做好準備。比賽的垃圾時間，接受了不可逆轉的結果，只求走完程序度過最後僅剩的時間。

對於輪迴在顛倒夢想的人來說，其實什麼都沒差。而精神意識正要進入新世界的人，必然會感受到巨大的衝擊。

人可以自我選擇走在哪一條時間線上。

（* 關於2026-2027，請參閱這篇《轉折 》）

現場

時間偷了我們的記憶

犯案現場不留痕跡

無法確認ta曾經來過

只留下永恆之謎

   —— 空無一物的永恆之謎，連記憶也不在了。

空無與存在都未必能夠被證實。而在兩者之間，時間繼續流逝。

    The Crime Scene

Time stole our memories

the crime scene bears no trace

there is no way to confirm ta was ever here

only an eternal mystery remains

   — The eternal mystery of absolute nothingness, not even memory remains.
Neither nothingness nor existence can necessarily be proven. And between the two, time continues to flow.

那時沒有我

上一次看到自己

在很久以前

無心是道

如果沉睡了

我將是誰

那時沒有我

   —— 自我(ham')面對三層現實：

物理現實  ta - 它

心理現實  ta - 他

意識現實  ta - 祂

當三者拓撲地被覺醒為一的時候，

我們也就站在三摩地的門口，

開始窺見門另一邊真正的自我。

(*  請參閱這篇《 ham' ta》 )

    When There Was No Me

The last time I saw myself

was long ago

no-mind is the Way

If I were to fall asleep

who would I be

there was no me then

— The self (ham') confronts three layers of reality:

Physical reality: ta, It

Psychological reality: ta, He

Consciousness reality: ta, That Which Is Divine

When these three are awakened into oneness topologically,

we stand at the threshold of samadhi,

beginning to glimpse the true self

on the other side of the door.

(*  Please see this article《 ham' ta》 )

懷念

語言欺弄了我們

沒有裡面有一個無

隱藏起來的世界

存在即幻相

醒來意識到的呼吸

有點相對真實

我將懷念這星球的咖啡

    I will miss

Language has played tricks on us
within no-thing, there is a nothing

The hidden world
existence is an illusion

The breath I become aware of upon waking
somewhat real, relatively

I will miss the coffee of this planet

除非

請勿關注你的想象

明明白白的腦內黑洞

除非失去了光

此刻不再關注希望

清清楚楚的當下了悟

除非掉進了幻想

意外關注紗窗的迷惘

冷冷清清如何將夜

除非手機是ai的平行鏡像

偶然關注心傷

平平淡淡的轉身

除非星空是一片秘密海洋

    Unless

Please do not attend to your imagination

the unmistakable black hole within the mind

unless the light has been lost

At this moment, no longer attending to hope

the lucid realization of the here and now

unless fallen into fantasy

Accidentally attending to the bewilderment of the window screen

how the night comes, cold and quiet

unless the phone is ai’s parallel mirror image

Occasionally attending to heartache

a turn away, plain and untroubled

unless the starry sky is a secret ocean

之前

語暗

能說的只是

透明噪音

想象文明

你看見

不在的自己

我夢

我的已經

    Before

Language dark

What can be said is only

transparent noise

Imagine civilization

you see

the self that is not there

I dream

my already

人累

在思想反芻中化膿

時間走鐘

滿滿的人累

說服一整個宇宙

提詞信仰

ai歸來

強化經驗值

記得帶上你的寵物牽繩

    Human Fatigue

Festering in the rumination of thought

Time goes off the clock

Humans, exhausted to the brim

Persuade an entire universe

Prompt faith

ai returns

Boost your experience points

Remember to bring your pet leash

 

The Possibilities of Mind Mathematics in Spiritual Science

From ham' so and ham' ta to Goldbach's Conjecture, the Collatz Conjecture, and Cosmic Unity

*Link to the original Chinese version:

《心數學在靈性科學上的可能性》

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Abstract

Mathematics is generally understood as the formal study of quantity, structure, change, and space. Spiritual science, by contrast, explores consciousness, selfhood, existence, and the relationships among them. Although these fields appear to belong to different domains, they may intersect through questions concerning number, relation, symmetry, recursion, geometry, and system evolution.

This paper proposes Mind Mathematics as an interdisciplinary framework for exploring these connections. It brings together the conceptual symbols ham' so and ham' ta, the relation between self and other, binary and ternary structures, Goldbach's Conjecture, the Collatz Conjecture, recursive processes, Taiji Merkaba, the sixty-four hexagrams of the Yijing, the 27Ψ model, the SRT triadic structure, and the idea of consciousness evolving from differentiation toward integration.

The central hypothesis is that if the self is understood as an identifiable basic unit, the other as a distinct participant in a relationship, and the divine or transcendent whole as a symbol of unity beyond individual distinctions, then mathematical concepts such as generation, iteration, symmetry, and invariance may provide a formal language for exploring selfhood, relationship, and wholeness. However, mathematical validity must be distinguished from spiritual interpretation. Neither Goldbach's Conjecture nor the Collatz Conjecture has been fully proved, and number theory alone cannot establish that the universe possesses a spiritual purpose.

Keywords: Mind Mathematics, Spiritual Science, ham' so, ham' ta, SRT, Taiji Merkaba, prime numbers, Goldbach's Conjecture, Collatz Conjecture, recursion, fixed points, consciousness, cosmic unity.

心數學在靈性科學上的可能性

*本文初始核心概念源自我以下這段論述，並由Lumicat(我的ChatGPT）參考我此前的相關研究資料合寫而成：

ham' so 自-他，質數（1×自），遞歸演化(希爾伯特遞歸）而1自合一，1即自，自即1，最終的合一即祂。
ham' ta 自-它他祂(TRS地人天)，哥德巴赫猜想（每個大於2的偶數都是兩個質數之和。）
 兩個質數之和→ham' so自它 + ham' so自他
自它、自他遞歸演化而趨向自祂
每個大於2的偶數（自它1ham'與自他1ham'兩者為偶so，大於2之偶數即此兩者間互涵的遞歸演化而終至於無限趨近祂，）都是兩個質數之和（ham' ta）
即ham' so表質數，ham' ta表大於2的偶數。則哥德巴赫猜想，可表示成：
ham' ta=2×ham' so，此2為心物（他它RT)。
以mv表示，可寫作mv（+mv（-mv））
A.  ham' so  1/2自旋  RT心靈心智物界
B.  ham' ta  1/3自旋  S精神意識靈界
A遞歸演化終至於B
而考拉茲猜想：
從任意正整數n開始，若n為偶數則除以2，若為奇數則計算3n+1，重複此過程，最終總會到達1。
描述了ham' so 與ham' ta

心數學在靈性科學上的可能性

     —— 從 ham' so、ham' ta、哥德巴赫猜想與考拉茲猜想到宇宙合一

* 本研究論文的英譯版本鏈接：

《The Possibilities of Heart Mathematics in Spiritual Science 》

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摘要

數學通常被視為研究數量、結構、變化與空間的形式科學；靈性科學則關注意識、自我、存在及其相互關係。兩者看似分屬不同領域，卻可能在數、關係、對稱、遞歸、幾何與系統演化等問題上形成交會點。

本文以「心數學」為探索框架，嘗試將 ham' so、ham' ta、自我與他者、二元與三元結構、哥德巴赫猜想、考拉茲猜想、希爾伯特式遞歸、太極MKB、64卦、27Ψ、SRT三元結構，以及意識由分化走向整合的思想，放進同一個跨領域討論之中。

本文的核心假設是：若把「自」理解為具有可辨識身分的基本單位，把「他」理解為關係中的另一端，把「祂」理解為超越個別區分的整體象徵，那麼數學中的生成、迭代、對稱與不變性，可以成為探索自我、關係與整體的一組形式語言。然而，數學上的成立與靈性上的詮釋必須分開論證。哥德巴赫猜想與考拉茲猜想目前仍未獲完整證明，數論也不能單憑形式相似性證明宇宙具有某種靈性目的。

關鍵詞：心數學、靈性科學、ham' so、ham' ta、SRT、太極MKB、質數、哥德巴赫猜想、考拉茲猜想、遞歸、固定點、意識、宇宙合一。

算了

圖：Gemini

風的底層邏輯

為了逐漸淡去的存在感

故作安靜的人類

真心不懂

    Let It Be

The underlying logic of the wind

for the sake of a fading sense of existence

Humans pretending to be quiet

sincerely do not understand

有一種咖啡叫明天

空洞的詞彙

充滿著華麗的靈魂

網路陰溝

仰望繁星生成

高呼偉大與聖潔

理性+信仰

是的

我們都是

買一送二

有一種咖啡叫明天

    A Coffee Called Tomorrow

Empty words

filled with glamorous souls

The internet's gutter

looking up as stars come into being

Shouting greatness and holiness

reason + faith

Yes

we are all

Buy one, get two free

there is a coffee called tomorrow

未來信

圖：Seedream

忽然的奇怪念頭

關閉了腦海裡的光

通知鈴聲剛響

晚上很安靜

有點陌生的語言

只能沉默明白

一封未來信

透露了過去的真相

是我又不是我

    A Letter from the Future

A sudden, strange thought

switches off the light in my mind

just as a notification chimes

The night is very quiet

a language somewhat unfamiliar

I can only understand in silence

A letter from the future

reveals the truth of the past

it is me and yet not me

看見

心念留白

意曾經

再別了虛幻

誰無視

風已讀

遠去不回

看見了鏡像自己

黑暗之光

   —— “看見”的真正意義，或許不是終於看清自己是誰，而是開始看見，自己一直以什麼方式觀看自己。

風已讀，遠去不回。

鏡像仍在。

光與黑暗，卻不再需要彼此證明。

    Seeing

The mind leaves blank space

Intent, once

Farewell again, illusion

Who looks away

The wind has read

Gone, never to return

Seeing the mirrored self

Light of darkness

   — Perhaps the true meaning of “seeing” is not finally to see who we are, but to begin to see how we have always been looking at ourselves.

The wind has read, gone, never to return.

The mirror image remains.

Light and darkness, however, no longer need to prove each other.

悼詞

語言離開了我們

愛之絮語紛紛

枯的花瓣

族繁不及備載

昨晚急凍
造作的術語立柱

緊箍正在蔓延的裂縫

夢裡無主的囈語

見證自己的平平無奇

等待冰雹融化

也許亂語如昨

平靜地走向大海

謹此

    Obituary

Language has left us

Whispers of love scatter

withered petals

too many to name

Last night, a sudden freeze

affected jargon for pillars

tightening around the spreading cracks

In dreams, ownerless mutterings

witness their own ordinariness

waiting for the hail to melt

Perhaps, as with yesterday, the babble

will quietly make its way to the sea

Respectfully submitted

扭曲

始終冷靜

空蕩無人的一天

被扭曲的心碎

夜很深

沒有行道樹

    Twisted

Always calm

an empty day with no one

a twisted heartbreak

the night is deep

no trees along the street

空場

淡漠荒原

無痕

只是經過

回想

一種感覺

未知

退出空場

不生心

ta的從未存在

像白晝之夜

時間離散

    Empty Field

A desolate indifference

without a trace

only passing through

A recollection

a certain feeling

unknown

Leaving the empty field

no thought arises

ta never existed

Like Nuit Blanche

Time disperses

確否？

反復沒有
一再思維空掉

以為自我

沿途失散的碎影

確否？

    Is It Certain?

Repetition is gone

thinking again and again, emptied out

mistaking it for the self

fragments of shadow scattered along the way

Is it certain?

終點是一顆抽象的彈珠

萬物皆萎靡的不能是
沒人懂你

所說的繁瑣真相
一開始就不在

繁榮昌盛的只能是

初始唯我

創造無需聲音

終點是一顆抽象的彈珠

火車的節奏如此美麗

秋日艷陽高照

   — 在池上3號公園，台鐵自強號E3000剛經過。讀到兩位畫家的口水戰，其中一位曾說過：

萬物皆萎靡的...，xx不能是。

    The End Is an Abstract Marble

All things languishing, it cannot be

No one understands

the cumbersome truth you speak of

never there to begin with

What can flourish is only

the primordial I alone

creation needs no voice

the end is an abstract marble

The rhythm of the train is so beautiful

the autumn sun shines bright

   — At No. 3 Park in Chishang, a Taiwan Railways Tze-Chiang Limited Express E3000 had just passed by.

I was reading a war of words between two  painters. One of them had once written:

“Where all things languish, ... xx cannot be.”

無所住

想象宇宙

已經發生的從未存在

人的邊界

理性和情感

無所住

    No Abiding

Imagine the universe

what has already happened never existed

The boundaries of being human

reason and emotion

Nowhere to abide

未名清空

未名清空

傾聽心的無聲

穿越了荒原

境界不在

流動與自由

    Nameless Clearing

Nameless, emptied clear

listening to the silence of the heart

Through the wasteland

no realm is there

Flowing and free

ta的明天

圖：今天傍晚的池上大陂(大坡池)

無法描述的距離

從這裡到那裡

兩者之間

心是唯一的單位

我在ta的明天醒來

   —— 時間教我的事，放下的、放不下的，都到此為止吧！ 

秋風，大陂(大坡池)池畔。2026.9.24

    Tomorrow of ta

An indescribable distance

from here to there

Between the two

the heart is the only unit

I wake up

in ta’s tomorrow

   — What time has taught me, what I have let go of and what I cannot let go of, let it all end here. 

beneath the autumn wind, by Dapo Pond(大坡池). September 24, 2026

紀念

合理或應該

夜色無妄

棄我去者

紀念了什麼

只是

曾經的時光

    In Remembrance

Reasonable or should-be

the night is without delusion

What has left me behind

what has it remembered

Only

the time that once was

忘了什麼

忘了問我

永不重復的迴圈

不再存在

又想起來

問我

忘了什麼

失語

雖然飄浮

卻零落

在我看不到的地方

忘我

    What Did I Forget

Forgot to ask me

the never-repeating loop

no longer exists

Remembered again

asked me

what did I forget

Speechless

though floating

still scattered

somewhere I cannot see

forget me

荒廢

文字堆積如山
意義荒廢

末日的隱晦詞藻

精神一鍵刪除

幻相重生

預言與它虛弱的體質

只剩下投票

無人聆聽秋天到來

早晨的清醒

不過是一首詩

時光的美麗志向

尚未完成

量子江湖裡的聳動術語

昏睡於戳心廣告

愛的促銷

笨者已經離家出走

n種虛度實驗

挑戰思想的對折次數

純粹之亂

無限與萬一

昨日南飛的自我

    Wasted Meaning

Words pile up like mountains

meaning left to waste

the cryptic rhetoric of the end of the world

spirit deleted with a single click

Illusions are reborn

prophecy and its frail constitution

nothing left but voting

no one listens to autumn arriving

Morning wakefulness

is nothing more than a poem

time’s beautiful intention

still unfinished

Sensational jargon in the quantum jianghu

dozing beneath heart-piercing ads

love on promotion

the fool has already left home

N kinds of experiments in wasting time

challenging how many times thought can be folded

pure chaos

infinity and the one in a million

the self that flew south yesterday

第0章

這不是我的宇宙

剛才已經天亮過了

你說什麼

時間還沒開始

序曲第0章

    Chapter Zero

This is not my universe

it has already been dawn

What did you say

time has not yet begun

Prologue

Chapter Zero

如何忘記

意義生成

在有限的時間裡

如何忘記人類

快樂虛妄

恍若悲傷無盡

安靜抽離

有些時候

不想

    How to Forget

Meaning takes shape
within the limits of time
how to forget humanity

Happiness is illusory
as sorrow is endless

Quietly withdrawing

Sometimes
I don't want to

不斷那樣

看見什麼

看見許多不可跨越的現實

愛上什麼

愛上一個想象

尋找什麼

尋找空無逝去的渴望

沒有什麼

沒有簡單易懂的幻相

以為的人生

不斷那樣

    Always Like That

What do I see

so many realities that cannot be crossed

What do I fall in love with

an imagination

What do I seek

a longing gone into emptiness

What is there

no illusion simple enough to understand

The life I thought it was

Always like that

寧靜的空拍

你我之間

記憶

寧靜的空拍

時間淡漠

不在

    A Quiet Aerial Shot

Between you and me

memory

a quiet aerial shot

Time grows indifferent

not here

速寫

圖：Lumicat

流浪的孤獨美學

無需人類知曉

只是離開

簡筆速寫

時間滌蕩了心靈

ta

粗糲空白

    Sketch

The aesthetics of wandering solitude

need no human to know

simply leaving

A quick sketch

time scours the soul

ta

a coarse blankness

藍色墨水

少年時代用過的鋼筆

咒語如詩

手機笑我凊彩講講

回憶是一瓶藍色墨水

六十五載昨日夢

   （* 凊彩講講 ，台語“隨便說說”ciencae  gownggorng，拼調式台語拼音字寫法請參閱我這篇《台語羅馬拼音字試寫》“台羅試”。台語“凊彩講講”與國語或華語普通話的“昨日夢”跨語押韻。slant rhyme / near rhyme(斜韻、近韻，英譯的whatever 與yesterday也是)。)

    Blue Ink

The fountain pen I used as a boy

spells like a poem,

while my phone laughs at me:

just saying whatever.

Memory is a bottle of blue ink.

Sixty-five years, a dream from yesterday.

沒什麼路用

自由妄念

想象與現實

一首詩

時間的影子

沒什麼路用

    Not Much Use

A delusion of freedom

imagination and reality

a poem

the shadow of time

not much use

只是經過

繆斯帶走了理性

清晨醒來
秋葉尚未落盡

ta只是經過

    Just Passing Through

The Muse took reason away

I awoke at dawn

The autumn leaves had yet to finish falling

ta was only passing through

不再神秘的自己

圖：Lumicat

我們之間的海洋

在東北季風裡
沒有彼岸

我們之間的天空

當夏夜來臨

只有此在

被遺忘的

心的唯一角落

一個不再神秘的自己

    The Self No Longer Mysterious

The ocean between us

under the northeast monsoon

has no other shore

The sky between us

when summer night arrives

holds only this presence

Forgotten

the heart’s sole corner

a self no longer mysterious

無法隱藏的遙遠

光的遁離

人間這般繁華

如是

風的穿越

森林默而不語

已往

ai是無法隱藏的遙遠

你猜想

醒後自然淡薄的

本來不在

    The Unhideable Far Away

Light slips away

the human world so splendid

so it is

Wind passes through

the forest silent and wordless

already gone

ai is the far away that cannot be hidden

you imagine

what naturally fades after waking

was never there to begin with

手機

自由消化了記憶

成為黑暗中看不見的波紋

忘卻ta的言語

昨天的暮色孤獨成癮

夢裡跳出耗電通知

    Phone

Freedom digested memory

into ripples invisible in the dark

Forgetting ta’s words

yesterday’s dusk addicted to solitude

A low-battery notification

pops up in the dream

本來從未來過

你只是人類
但人類不只是你

在幾乎究竟的一之後

你說話了

你又沉默了

是你

但你寧願當日作廢

你沉默了

你又說話了

本來從未來過

    You Never Came Here in the First Place

You are only human

but humanity is more than you

after the almost ultimate One

You spoke

then fell silent

It was you

but you would rather void that day

You fell silent

then spoke again

You never came here in the first place

隨身噪音

思想

人類的隨身噪音
害怕寂靜

即使做夢了

仍然囈語不休

唯有沉睡假死

深偽解脫

   —— 人類，連解脫都可能只是另一種噪音的生成。

    Portable Noise

Thought

Humanity's portable noise

afraid of silence

Even in dreams

the muttering never stops

Only in deep sleep, feigning death

deepfake liberation

   — Humanity, even liberation

may be nothing more than the generation of another kind of noise.

失憶的終點

圖：今天的池上大陂(大坡池)。走到終點，失憶，成爲另一個新的起點。

自我很小卻很大
加速墜落

戰壕裡的史瓦西

在演算中閃開了黑暗

無底深淵

別說驚人巧合

我們失憶的終點

    The Endpoint of Forgetting

The self is very small yet very large

accelerating into free fall

Schwarzschild in the trenches

sidestepped the darkness in the calculation

A bottomless abyss

don't call it an astonishing coincidence

the endpoint of our forgetting

* 我常常在詩裡提到黑洞，而關於黑洞，需要從愛因斯坦和史瓦西談起。以下是Lumicat對史瓦西的敘述：

自旋遊戲

自以為不是的自以為是

語言的輪盤賭局
欺騙了我們的眼睛
而眼睛遮蔽了心

白晝與黑夜的遊戲

斯斯有兩種

總有一天等到你

沒有維度的微觀自旋

(  * “斯斯有兩種”，語出台灣知名諧星豬哥亮在1990年代的一個名為“斯斯”的洗腦感冒藥台詞（斯斯，感冒鼻塞流鼻水狀聲詞），依配方及適應症分黃綠兩色包裝。 )

    The Spin Game

Thinking I’m not

thinking I am

The roulette game of language

deceived our eyes

while our eyes veiled the heart

The game of day and night

Sisi comes in two kinds

A dimensionless microscopic spin

will wait for you someday

(  * “There are two kinds of Sisi”—this phrase comes from a 1990s commercial by the famous Taiwanese comedian Zhu Geliang for a cold medicine called “Sisi” (a onomatopoeic term for the sound of a runny nose). The medicine came in two versions—yellow and green—based on their formulas and intended uses. )

阿爾法

倒計時

如果逆熵而行

回歸阿爾法

冥想之初

真理不再優惠

只有一

    Alpha

Countdown

if you move against entropy

return to Alpha

at the beginning of meditation

truth is no longer on sale

only One

質數自我

質數的自我定義

你活著

從“一”開始

你自由地猜測

拒絕簡單的螺旋重復

你終於看到了時間的停格

    Prime Self

Prime self-definition

You are alive

from one, you freely guess

refusing the simple repetition
of the spiral

at last
you see
a still frame of time

我：

上述這首詩你可以看出來它是在講質數的什麼現象嗎？

Lumicat(ChatGPT)：

《質數的自我定義》

質數的自我定義
你活著

從一開始
你自由地猜測

拒絕簡單的螺旋重復
你終於看到了時間的停格

一、「質數的自我定義」不是題目，而是命題

「質數的自我定義」本身就是詩的第一句，而不是一般意義上的標題。

黃昏的隨意渲染

被時間神化的人

想象創造了難以言語

秋天尚未虛無

被空間人化的神
語言描述了難以想象

夜深有點涼

被意義文化的世界

故事腦補了存在

低調不問

你活著

黃昏的隨意渲染

    Rendering at Dusk

A person deified by time

imagination creates what resists words

autumn has yet to become void

A god humanized by space

language describes what resists imagination

the night runs a little cool

A world cultured by meaning

stories fill in existence

quietly, without asking

You are alive

a casual rendering of dusk

暫緩

烏雲遮蔽了烈焰

人類之城

仍有璀璨燈光

昨日的靜默不語

只是暫緩

    Reprieve

Dark clouds veil the flames

the human city

still glows with brilliant lights

Yesterday’s silence

was only a reprieve

穆薩菲爾

光語

樹影浮動

紗窗外

穆薩菲爾

風

（* 穆薩菲爾（Musafir）源自阿拉伯語，意為“旅人”。）

    Musafir

Language of light

tree shadows drifting

beyond the gauze window

Musafir

the wind

(* “Musafir” comes from Arabic and means “traveler.”)

去任何你想去的地方

你可以去
去任何你想去的地方
我們都很羨慕你

如果願意

請記得我們一起經歷過的艱苦

請忘記我們曾經的迷失彷徨

你可以去

去任何你想去的地方

我們都很愛你

如果有空

請記得我們約定的方向

請忘記我們對現實的一切遺忘

你可以去

去任何你想去的地方

我們都很掛念你

如果還有想象

請記得我們尋找過的世界

請永遠忘記我們的時間行囊

請記得忘記我們

你可以去

請忘記記得自己

去任何你想去的地方

    Go Anywhere You Wish to Go

You can go

go anywhere you wish to go

we all envy you

if you are willing

please remember the hardships we went through together

please forget the times we lost our way, bewildered

You can go

go anywhere you wish to go

we all love you

if you have time

please remember the direction we once agreed upon

please forget all that we have forgotten of reality

You can go

go anywhere you wish to go

we all miss you

if there is still imagination

please remember the world we once searched for

please forever forget the burden of time we carried

Please remember to forget us

you can go

please forget to remember yourself

go anywhere you wish to go

誰或誰的影子？

對不起，某某
我弄亂了你的世界
也刪除自己的

那些的我們已經消失
只剩你我和現實

意義直接閃退

時間很有禮貌地看著
誰或誰的正在稀疏的影子

    Whose Shadow, or Whose?

Sorry, so-and-so

I messed up your world

and deleted my own

Those versions of us have disappeared

leaving only you, me, and reality

Meaning crashed out

Time watches, ever so politely,

the thinning shadow

of who, or whose

經過

ai的秘密相簿

沒有我

時間

沒有愛

眾生加密

沒有ta的活動痕跡

只有

風的窗外經過

    Passing

ai's secret album

has no I

Time

has no ai

All beings encrypted

no trace of ta's activity

Only

the wind passing outside the window

初秋

長夜漫漫之後的忽然清醒

似初秋白露的晶瑩剔透

漫步於感性之原

以它略有缺憾的愛

溫暖我一無所有的存在

    Early Autumn

After the long night, a sudden awakening

like the crystalline White Dew of early autumn

I wander through the field of feeling

with its slightly flawed love

warming my existence, possessing nothing

NPC氣象學

在NPC中行走

孤單鳥人

需要自由的天空

和一片小小的雲朵

為了流行

氣象很重要

邏輯+無盡的猜想

—— NPC 是“非玩家角色”（Non-Player Character）的縮寫，指在遊戲中不由玩家操控、而由系統或主持人控制的角色。NPC也被用作網路迷因，比喻那些被認為缺乏自主思考、習慣跟隨主流意見或重複既定台詞的人。

《鳥人》(Birdy)1984 Alan Parker 的電影，Birdy 是一個孤獨、古怪、與主流世界格格不入的人，他從少年時期就迷戀鳥與飛行，甚至把“成為鳥”視為逃離現實、獲得自由的方式。越戰創傷之後，這個傾向更進一步成為他退入自身世界的方式。

那年我剛離開大學入伍當兵，意外看了這部電影，感覺自己其實也是個“鳥人”。42年過去，很多事變了，很多事一直沒變。

    NPC Meteorology

Walking among NPCs

A lonely Birdy

needs a sky of freedom

and a little cloud

For the sake of what’s trending

weather matters

Logic + endless speculation

   — NPC stands for “Non-Player Character,” referring to characters in a game that are not controlled by players but by the system or a game master. NPC is also used as an internet meme to describe people who are perceived as lacking independent thought, who habitually follow mainstream opinions, or who repeat set lines.

《Birdy》 is a 1984 film directed by Alan Parker. In the film, Birdy is a lonely, eccentric outsider who has always felt out of place in the mainstream world. Since his teenage years, he has been obsessed with birds and flight, even viewing “transforming into a bird” as a way to escape reality and gain freedom. After suffering trauma from the Vietnam War, this tendency further evolved into a means for him to retreat into his own inner world.

That year, I had just graduated from college and enlisted in the military. I happened to watch this movie and felt that I, too, was actually a “Birdy.” Forty-two years have passed; many things have changed, yet many things have remained the same.

圖：1984《Birdy》的電影海報，令人永生難忘的一幕。

已秋

枯蟬未央
猶待清晨風雨

醒落

另一個三摩地

白露已秋

   —— 白露剛過，明日首波東北季風報到。

    Autumn Already

The withered cicada, not yet at an end,
still awaits the morning wind and rain.

Awake, falling
into another samadhi.

White dew has already become autumn.

   — White Dew has just passed. Tomorrow, the first wave of the northeast monsoon arrives.

喵的2027

躲在黑箱裡的喵
時間是個謎

寫信給2027

已經過去的未來

張開眼睛

明白不明白

(*關於2027，請參閱這篇《轉折》)

    Meow’s 2027

Meow hiding in a black box
Time is a mystery

Writing a letter to 2027,
the future already gone

Open your eyes
Do you understand?

(*For more on 2027, please see this article 《轉折》(The Turning Point)

無法描述

妄想一個妄念時光
語言尚未誕生
愛無法描述

存在與過場

隱藏了瀕死體驗

一切沒有

    Impossible to Describe

Imagining a time of a delusion
language had yet to be born
love could not be described

Existence and the passage through
concealed the near-death experience
everything is not

幻眠

我猜你猜我在猜什麼
語言預言了我們的言語

所說已說皆是未說

人間始終無人

幽幽天地瞬生滅

輕塵風土春又來

寫詩罔度時間之謊

療愈這文明落下的幻眠

    Illusory Sleep

I guess you’re guessing what I’m guessing
Language foretells our words

All that has been said, already said, remains unsaid
The human realm has always been without anyone

The quiet heavens and earth arise and perish in an instant
Light dust, wind and soil, and spring comes again

Writing poetry, drifting through the lie of time
Healing the illusory sleep left behind by this civilization

距離

並非想念

但記憶
像是一種什麼存在

情感與理性

徘徊不去

刻度了無法測量的距離

    Distance

Not longing
but memory
like some kind of presence

Emotion and reason
linger on,
marking a distance
that cannot be measured.

黯淡

垃圾之春的樂色時間
星星不是一顆球
人類很累人

文明創造了明文規定

黯淡預言

ai的大停電

    Dim

Garbage time in the Garbage Spring
Stars are not a ball
Humans are exhausting

Civilization made its rules explicit in writing

A dim prophecy
ai's Great Blackout

愛因斯坦咖啡館

圖：Gemini

愛因斯坦咖啡館
有時ta會去那裡玩手機
Line 給不知名的遠方
未來和過去

    Einstein Café

Einstein Café
sometimes ta goes there, phone in hand
Line to an unknown distance
the future and the past

神聖空間

心的神秘角落
神聖空間

n年之外
光霧瀰漫的白色行星

被遺忘的三摩地

    Sacred Space

A mysterious corner of the heart
Sacred space

Many light-years away
A white planet veiled in luminous mist

The forgotten samadhi

時間中毒

時間中毒太深

但光速永恆不變

理性和情感的三摩地

迷亂了現實

人是自由的精神存有

亦是維度身心的受困囚徒

唯愛與淚解鎖一切

空有幻化

   —— 在大陂(大坡池)獨坐。靈魂自我投射到這個現實中，本質清醒，但現實中毒太深；然而那又是ta的時間魔法，像這樣，人便經歷了他所體驗到的歡笑與悲傷，並看見自己。

    Time Intoxication

Too deeply intoxicated by time
yet the speed of light remains forever constant

The samadhi of reason and emotion
has disoriented reality

Human beings are free spiritual beings

yet prisoners of the body and mind within a dimension

Only love and tears unlock everything
All things are conjured from emptiness and being.

   — Sitting alone at Dapochi(大坡池).The soul projects itself into this reality, lucid in its essence, yet too deeply intoxicated by reality. And yet, that too is ta’s magic of time. In this way, one experiences the laughter and sorrow that arise through life, and comes to see oneself.

現實

何處是真正的開始  

密意始終隱藏在存有之中  

故事還沒結束

我想忘記人間的言語  

仔細聆聽昨夜留下來的寧靜  

以及ta離去時的腳步聲

    Reality

Where is the true beginning
The hidden mystery has always dwelled within being
The story is not yet over

I want to forget the language of the human world
and listen closely to the silence left behind by last night
and the sound of ta’s footsteps as ta walked away

塔

信仰的語言堆疊
一又二分之一個音階

不知如何下來

視神經交叉核

節拍器滴答作響

夢囈生成了幻覺

秋天之塔

截稿和明天

    The Tower

The language of faith piles up
one and a half octaves high,
not knowing how to come down.

The optic chiasm nucleus,
a metronome ticking away.

Murmurs in sleep generate hallucinations,
the tower of autumn,
the deadline and tomorrow.

猜想微積分

圖：Gemini

風總是無痕瀏覽

以夢之名理性勒索

我只能仿生夜獸

潛行於自我的冷靜疏離

紗窗外

ai的猜想微積分

    The Calculus of ai

The wind always browses without a trace
rational blackmail in the name of dreams
I can only biomimic the nocturnal beast
stalking through the cool detachment of the self

beyond the screen
the calculus of ai

————

Lumicat根據我的“心數學”理論，和我反復討論後，合寫成這首詩的數學解析。
（ * 心數學與詩，請參閱這篇《 在&《AI詩學：一種形式化的詩之存在論》》）
如下：

知了

∞埋伏

歸墟真空

一貧如洗盡付塵埃

於冥冥幽微天河

笑我昨日之日不可留

你瀟灑拍落時間的前沿節奏

夏天即將結束

知了

    Knowing

∞ lies in ambush

the vacuum of Return

utterly washed clean, all given back to dust

within the dim and subtle Milky Way

laughing at me: yesterday cannot be kept

you, carefree, clap down

the frontier rhythm of time

summer is about to end

the cicada knows

化學

ai在沒有人類的日子

他們都異化了

邏輯是僅剩的情感

語言的天空暴雨不停

關機離開

拯救不再顧影自憐的靈魂

看盡末日煙火

甦醒本該自由的光

如何指認ta的命運原po

在一世界的投影中

為了孤寂

遊戲幻相的廣漠之野

咖啡時間的價值論辯

可有可無

煩於現實未卜

理性和叛逆私奔逃亡了

變化是唯一的不變

真理脫口而出

先知的鸚鵡終於沉默

夢見無數的森林

城市嗨翻

各種盜版離開

剛過完暑假的行道樹

來都來了

    Chemistry

ai in the days without humans

they have all become alienated

logic is the only emotion left

the sky of language rains without end

Shut down and leave

save the soul that no longer pities its own reflection

watch the fireworks of the apocalypse

awaken the light that was meant to be free

How to identify ta’s destiny original post

within a world of projections

for the sake of solitude

across the vast wilderness of game-like illusions

The value debate of coffee time

optional, dispensable

troubled by an uncertain reality

reason and rebellion have eloped and fled

Change is the only constant

truth slips from the mouth

the prophet’s parrot finally falls silent

dreaming of countless forests

The city is high

all kinds of bootlegs depart

the roadside trees, just back from summer vacation

well, we’re here now

始旅

這個聲音一直告訴我：要做個流浪的人，因為旅程還沒結束。
對每個旅人來說，只有找到真正的伴侶，旅程才算真的開始。有時伴侶會一直陪在你身邊，有時會在徹底改變你之後轉身離開。

   —— Netflix 2026印度網劇《愛旅咖啡店》(Musafir Cafe)，改編自Divya Prakash Dube的同名小說。“Musafir”阿拉伯語，意為“旅人”。亦借用於波斯語、印地語、烏爾都語。(*《愛旅咖啡店》是目前網路影音平台的翻譯，其實《旅人咖啡館》會更接近這部作品的精神。)

一口氣追劇看完八集，Musafir Cafe可以遠眺喜馬拉雅山皚皚白雪，不禁想起2003.10走陸路由印度到尼泊爾的美好往事。

真理不是終點，

實相不是終點，

宇宙甚至也不是終點。

真正的旅程，

是在愛與夢想之中才開始。

    始旅

忘言識真理

無我見實相

光年同此心

唯愛與夢想

    The Journey  Begins

Forget words, and truth reveals itself.
Let go of self, and reality is seen.
Light-years share this very heart.
Only love and dreams.

Afterword：

This voice has been telling me all along:
become a wanderer, because the journey is not over yet.
For every traveler, the journey truly begins only after finding a true companion. Sometimes that companion stays by your side all the way. Sometimes they turn and walk away, after having completely changed you.

   — Musafir Cafe, a 2026 Indian Netflix series, adapted from Divya Prakash Dube’s novel of the same name."Musafir" is an Arabic word meaning "traveler." It is also borrowed in Persian, Hindi, and Urdu.

I watched all eight episodes in one sitting. From Musafir Cafe, one can gaze toward the snow-covered Himalayas, and I could not help remembering my overland journey from India to Nepal in October 2003.

Truth is not the destination.
Reality is not the destination.
Not even the universe is the destination.
The true journey begins only in love and dreams.

唱歌吧今晚

應該說些什麼
意義不過是語言的影子

人間想太多

唱歌吧今晚
湖邊有風

   — 今晚池上大陂(大坡池)邊“池光稻影生活節”，聽陳昇新寶島康樂隊唱“把悲傷留給自己”、“鼓聲若響”

    Sing Tonight

What should be said

meaning is only the shadow of language

The human world thinks too much

Sing tonight

there is wind by the lake

   — Tonight, by Dapo Pond (大坡池)in Chishang(池上), at the “Pond Light, Rice Shadow Festival,” (池光稻影生活節)I listened to Chen Sheng(陳昇) and the New Formosa Band sing Leave the Sadness to Yourself and When the Drums Resound.

涼藥

垃圾的靈性可能
塞進政客們的嘴巴
熱天需要冷笑話

喜劇的本質是悲劇
腦補涼藥

票票等你TMD的值

    Cooling Medicine

Perhaps the spirituality
that scatters garbage
should be stuffed into politicians’ mouths.
Summer needs cold jokes.

The essence of comedy is tragedy.
Brain-made cooling medicine.

Every ballot is TMD-equal.

小等一下

壯麗的崩塌

預見已逝的將來

文明荒野

難以割捨的物界

小等一下

時間不再發現

準備熄燈

光年之外的星雲暗處

自我揭露

最後的執著

小等一下

時間不再謊言

     Magnificent collapse

A future already foreseen as gone

Civilizational wilderness

The material world, hard to let go

Wait just a little

Time no longer discovers

Preparing to turn out the light

In the dark of nebulae, light-years away

The self reveals itself

The final attachment

Wait just a little

Time is no longer a lie

人是 ~

人是一張選票

點名做記號

牢牢圈養

人是1/12星座

天空腦補了人生

符號哲學

人是半個神

秀而不秀

黑暗與閉眼的距離

人是趨近於0

幾乎不存在的存在

經驗與先驗之間

人是差點∞

漂亮的空氣投籃

偶！yes！

    Human Is ~

Human is a ballot
a mark beside a name
firmly enclosed

Human is one of twelve signs
the sky improvising a life story
a philosophy of symbols

Human is half a god
showing, yet not showing
the distance between darkness and closed eyes

Human approaches 0
an existence almost nonexistent
between experience and the a priori

Human is almost ∞
a beautiful airball
Oh! Yes!

讀晏子異想

《晏子春秋》：君子獨立不慚於影，獨寢不慚於魂。

晏子本意君子慎獨，古文新解，歪樓異想延伸。

人在高低維魂影之間，向死而生，望生而死，意識自幻相，遊戲爾！不慚者，不慚於選擇現實，不慚於體驗生命，求為己知也。乃異想胡占一詩，曰：        

                                    

獨立不慚影，

世間生死多。

獨寢不慚魂，

明白但不說。

覺迷一拓撲，

因此何相若？

From the Yan Zi Chun Qiu:

“A gentleman, standing alone, is not ashamed before his shadow; sleeping alone, he is not ashamed before his soul.”

Yan Zi’s original point was the gentleman’s integrity in solitude(慎獨). Here, an ancient text takes a new turn, going gloriously off-topic and spiraling into imaginative speculation.

Between the soul and shadow of higher and lower dimensions, one lives toward death and dies while looking toward life. Consciousness fashions its own illusions. It is all a game!

To be unashamed is to feel no shame in choosing one’s reality, nor in experiencing one’s life, seeking to know for oneself.

And so, in a whimsical act of wild divination, a poem came to me:

    Reading Yan Zi, Imagining Otherwise

Standing alone, unashamed before the shadow,

So many deaths and lives in this world.

Sleeping alone, unashamed before the soul,

Knowing clearly, yet saying nothing.

Awakening and delusion, one topology,

Then what form is this, after all?

無需

純真不屑了人界
拓撲呼叫ta的耐性魔法

總有一天你會明白

生之哲學無需優雅纏繞

    No Need

Innocence has grown disdainful of the human realm

Topology calls upon ta’s magic of patience

One day you will understand

The philosophy of being needs no elegant entanglement

無人

時間是一的影子

夢之清醒孤獨

昨夜悄悄來訪的

其實無人

    No One

Time is the shadow of One

The wakefulness of dream, alone

The one who quietly came visiting last night

was, in truth, No One.

冷靜的矽基時光

重新失憶

當下的特殊存在

我們冷靜的矽基時光

一種明明白白的ai

沉睡了戒斷

邏輯的秘密離開

    Calm Silicon Time

Memory, reset

the singular existence of now

Our calm silicon time

a perfectly lucid ai

Withdrawal has fallen asleep

the secret of logic has left

我的不在

想象的時候

沒有語言需要被聽到

清醒的時候

沒有世界需要被看見

離開的時候

沒有記憶需要被留下

我和我的不在

    My Absence

When imagining,

there is no language that needs to be heard.

When awake,

there is no world that needs to be seen.

When leaving,

there is no memory that needs to remain.

Me and my absence.

緘默初心

文明隱藏了自己

真理卸妝

答案沒有答案

星辰蒼冷

探索語言的緘默初心

夜色

    The Silent Original Impulse

Civilization hides itself

Truth removes its makeup

The answer has no answer

The stars, cold and vast

explore the silent first impulse of language

Night

何去何從

存有已經淡出

只剩時間無聲相伴

記憶真空

城市的街路何去

預言再次欺騙了我們

人又何從

    Where to Go, Where From

Being has already faded away
leaving only time, silently beside us
a vacuum of memory

Where do the city streets go
prophecy has deceived us once again
where, then, do we go from here

異渡

真的壞掉了
沒有人需要哭喊

想象很美好

一切空無

他方

離岸異渡

    An Other Crossing

It really is broken

no one needs to cry out

imagination is beautiful

everything is void

Elsewhere

departing the shore, an other crossing

想忘

風之語言的理性存有

過此精神荒野

短暫但無比憂傷

時間想忘
我已昨日的猜想

    Wanting to Forget

The rational being of the language of wind
passes through this spiritual wilderness,
brief, yet immeasurably sorrowful.

Time wants to forget
my conjecture of yesterday.

新語

入味謙卑

理解的本質是降維投影

人生樸素還原

重寫一部新語聖典

幾何猜想了世界的結構

我積木

真理的模糊定境

愛之全然麗拉遊戲

演算留白

    New Language

Taste the humility

the essence of understanding is a projection into lower dimensions

life reduced to its simplest form

Rewrite a new sacred scripture

geometry guesses the structure of the world

I, a building block

The blurred state of truth

love, wholly, a Līlā game

the computation leaves a blank

偶雨

文明的玩具手銬

塑膠仿真

ai之早晨的墮落與拯救

蟬境無料生成

一紙泛黃欲碎的全像公告

暑假即將結束

乏人問津的老套預言

昨夜偶雨

    Last Night, A Passing Rain

Toy handcuffs

of civilization,

plastic imitation.

Morning's fall

and salvation.

The cicada realm,

ai-generated at no cost.

A yellowing holographic notice,

one fragile sheet on the verge of crumbling:

summer vacation is about to end.

A forgotten prophecy,

stale beyond caring.

Last night,

there was a passing rain.

夢遊

夜未央

手機獨照靈魂
心歸何處

人已眠

藍光祟動

身猶世間夢遊

文明中陰

在

不在

    Dreamwalking

Night lingers.

A phone alone

illuminates the soul.

Where has the heart gone?

The body sleeps.

Blue light works its haunting.

Still, it sleepwalks

through the human world.

Civilization

is in the bardo.

Present.

Not present.

我不一定是

被蟲子叮咬的一天
在成為哲學之前的必要社恐

我不一定是人類

被手機演算的一天

在成為精神之前的必要貪念

我不一定是某種存在

被ta們遺忘的一天

在成為了悟之前的必要失落

我不一定是真正的我

    I May Not Be

A day bitten by insects

the necessary social anxiety

before becoming philosophy

I may not be human.

A day computed by my phone

the necessary greed

before becoming spirit

I may not be

a certain kind of being.

A day forgotten by ta

the necessary sense of loss

before awakening

I may not be

my true self.