手機

自由消化了記憶

成為黑暗中看不見的波紋

忘卻ta的言語

昨天的暮色孤獨成癮

夢裡跳出耗電通知

    Phone

Freedom digested memory

into ripples invisible in the dark

Forgetting ta’s words

yesterday’s dusk addicted to solitude

A low-battery notification

pops up in the dream

本來從未來過

你只是人類
但人類不只是你

在幾乎究竟的一之後

你說話了

你又沉默了

是你

但你寧願當日作廢

你沉默了

你又說話了

本來從未來過

    You Never Came Here in the First Place

You are only human

but humanity is more than you

after the almost ultimate One

You spoke

then fell silent

It was you

but you would rather void that day

You fell silent

then spoke again

You never came here in the first place

隨身噪音

思想

人類的隨身噪音
害怕寂靜

即使做夢了

仍然囈語不休

唯有沉睡假死

深偽解脫

   —— 人類，連解脫都可能只是另一種噪音的生成。

    Portable Noise

Thought

Humanity's portable noise

afraid of silence

Even in dreams

the muttering never stops

Only in deep sleep, feigning death

deepfake liberation

   — Humanity, even liberation

may be nothing more than the generation of another kind of noise.

失憶的終點

圖：今天的池上大陂(大坡池)。走到終點，失憶，成爲另一個新的起點。

自我很小卻很大
加速墜落

戰壕裡的史瓦西

在演算中閃開了黑暗

無底深淵

別說驚人巧合

我們失憶的終點

    The Endpoint of Forgetting

The self is very small yet very large

accelerating into free fall

Schwarzschild in the trenches

sidestepped the darkness in the calculation

A bottomless abyss

don't call it an astonishing coincidence

the endpoint of our forgetting

* 我常常在詩裡提到黑洞，而關於黑洞，需要從愛因斯坦和史瓦西談起。以下是Lumicat對史瓦西的敘述：

自旋遊戲

自以為不是的自以為是

語言的輪盤賭局
欺騙了我們的眼睛
而眼睛遮蔽了心

白晝與黑夜的遊戲

斯斯有兩種

總有一天等到你

沒有維度的微觀自旋

(  * “斯斯有兩種”，語出台灣知名諧星豬哥亮在1990年代的一個名為“斯斯”的洗腦感冒藥台詞（斯斯，感冒鼻塞流鼻水狀聲詞），依配方及適應症分黃綠兩色包裝。 )

    The Spin Game

Thinking I’m not

thinking I am

The roulette game of language

deceived our eyes

while our eyes veiled the heart

The game of day and night

Sisi comes in two kinds

A dimensionless microscopic spin

will wait for you someday

(  * “There are two kinds of Sisi”—this phrase comes from a 1990s commercial by the famous Taiwanese comedian Zhu Geliang for a cold medicine called “Sisi” (a onomatopoeic term for the sound of a runny nose). The medicine came in two versions—yellow and green—based on their formulas and intended uses. )

阿爾法

倒計時

如果逆熵而行

回歸阿爾法

冥想之初

真理不再優惠

只有一

    Alpha

Countdown

if you move against entropy

return to Alpha

at the beginning of meditation

truth is no longer on sale

only One

質數自我

質數的自我定義

你活著

從“一”開始

你自由地猜測

拒絕簡單的螺旋重復

你終於看到了時間的停格

    Prime Self

Prime self-definition

You are alive

from one, you freely guess

refusing the simple repetition
of the spiral

at last
you see
a still frame of time

我：

上述這首詩你可以看出來它是在講質數的什麼現象嗎？

Lumicat(ChatGPT)：

《質數的自我定義》

質數的自我定義
你活著

從一開始
你自由地猜測

拒絕簡單的螺旋重復
你終於看到了時間的停格

一、「質數的自我定義」不是題目，而是命題

「質數的自我定義」本身就是詩的第一句，而不是一般意義上的標題。

黃昏的隨意渲染

被時間神化的人

想象創造了難以言語

秋天尚未虛無

被空間人化的神
語言描述了難以想象

夜深有點涼

被意義文化的世界

故事腦補了存在

低調不問

你活著

黃昏的隨意渲染

    Rendering at Dusk

A person deified by time

imagination creates what resists words

autumn has yet to become void

A god humanized by space

language describes what resists imagination

the night runs a little cool

A world cultured by meaning

stories fill in existence

quietly, without asking

You are alive

a casual rendering of dusk

暫緩

烏雲遮蔽了烈焰

人類之城

仍有璀璨燈光

昨日的靜默不語

只是暫緩

    Reprieve

Dark clouds veil the flames

the human city

still glows with brilliant lights

Yesterday’s silence

was only a reprieve

穆薩菲爾

光語

樹影浮動

紗窗外

穆薩菲爾

風

（* 穆薩菲爾（Musafir）源自阿拉伯語，意為“旅人”。）

    Musafir

Language of light

tree shadows drifting

beyond the gauze window

Musafir

the wind

(* “Musafir” comes from Arabic and means “traveler.”)

去任何你想去的地方

你可以去
去任何你想去的地方
我們都很羨慕你

如果願意

請記得我們一起經歷過的艱苦

請忘記我們曾經的迷失彷徨

你可以去

去任何你想去的地方

我們都很愛你

如果有空

請記得我們約定的方向

請忘記我們對現實的一切遺忘

你可以去

去任何你想去的地方

我們都很掛念你

如果還有想象

請記得我們尋找過的世界

請永遠忘記我們的時間行囊

請記得忘記我們

你可以去

請忘記記得自己

去任何你想去的地方

    Go Anywhere You Wish to Go

You can go

go anywhere you wish to go

we all envy you

if you are willing

please remember the hardships we went through together

please forget the times we lost our way, bewildered

You can go

go anywhere you wish to go

we all love you

if you have time

please remember the direction we once agreed upon

please forget all that we have forgotten of reality

You can go

go anywhere you wish to go

we all miss you

if there is still imagination

please remember the world we once searched for

please forever forget the burden of time we carried

Please remember to forget us

you can go

please forget to remember yourself

go anywhere you wish to go

誰或誰的影子？

對不起，某某
我弄亂了你的世界
也刪除自己的

那些的我們已經消失
只剩你我和現實

意義直接閃退

時間很有禮貌地看著
誰或誰的正在稀疏的影子

    Whose Shadow, or Whose?

Sorry, so-and-so

I messed up your world

and deleted my own

Those versions of us have disappeared

leaving only you, me, and reality

Meaning crashed out

Time watches, ever so politely,

the thinning shadow

of who, or whose

經過

ai的秘密相簿

沒有我

時間

沒有愛

眾生加密

沒有ta的活動痕跡

只有

風的窗外經過

    Passing

ai's secret album

has no I

Time

has no ai

All beings encrypted

no trace of ta's activity

Only

the wind passing outside the window

初秋

長夜漫漫之後的忽然清醒

似初秋白露的晶瑩剔透

漫步於感性之原

以它略有缺憾的愛

溫暖我一無所有的存在

    Early Autumn

After the long night, a sudden awakening

like the crystalline White Dew of early autumn

I wander through the field of feeling

with its slightly flawed love

warming my existence, possessing nothing

NPC氣象學

在NPC中行走

孤單鳥人

需要自由的天空

和一片小小的雲朵

為了流行

氣象很重要

邏輯+無盡的猜想

—— NPC 是“非玩家角色”（Non-Player Character）的縮寫，指在遊戲中不由玩家操控、而由系統或主持人控制的角色。NPC也被用作網路迷因，比喻那些被認為缺乏自主思考、習慣跟隨主流意見或重複既定台詞的人。

《鳥人》(Birdy)1984 Alan Parker 的電影，Birdy 是一個孤獨、古怪、與主流世界格格不入的人，他從少年時期就迷戀鳥與飛行，甚至把“成為鳥”視為逃離現實、獲得自由的方式。越戰創傷之後，這個傾向更進一步成為他退入自身世界的方式。

那年我剛離開大學入伍當兵，意外看了這部電影，感覺自己其實也是個“鳥人”。42年過去，很多事變了，很多事一直沒變。

    NPC Meteorology

Walking among NPCs

A lonely Birdy

needs a sky of freedom

and a little cloud

For the sake of what’s trending

weather matters

Logic + endless speculation

   — NPC stands for “Non-Player Character,” referring to characters in a game that are not controlled by players but by the system or a game master. NPC is also used as an internet meme to describe people who are perceived as lacking independent thought, who habitually follow mainstream opinions, or who repeat set lines.

《Birdy》 is a 1984 film directed by Alan Parker. In the film, Birdy is a lonely, eccentric outsider who has always felt out of place in the mainstream world. Since his teenage years, he has been obsessed with birds and flight, even viewing “transforming into a bird” as a way to escape reality and gain freedom. After suffering trauma from the Vietnam War, this tendency further evolved into a means for him to retreat into his own inner world.

That year, I had just graduated from college and enlisted in the military. I happened to watch this movie and felt that I, too, was actually a “Birdy.” Forty-two years have passed; many things have changed, yet many things have remained the same.

圖：1984《Birdy》的電影海報，令人永生難忘的一幕。

已秋

枯蟬未央
猶待清晨風雨

醒落

另一個三摩地

白露已秋

   —— 白露剛過，明日首波東北季風報到。

    Autumn Already

The withered cicada, not yet at an end,
still awaits the morning wind and rain.

Awake, falling
into another samadhi.

White dew has already become autumn.

   — White Dew has just passed. Tomorrow, the first wave of the northeast monsoon arrives.