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這不是我的宇宙

剛才已經天亮過了

你說什麼

時間還沒開始

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    Chapter Zero

This is not my universe

it has already been dawn

What did you say

time has not yet begun

Prologue

Chapter Zero

如何忘記

意義生成

在有限的時間裡

如何忘記人類

快樂虛妄

如同悲傷無盡

安靜抽離

有些時候

不想

    How to Forget

Meaning takes shape
within the limits of time
how to forget humanity

Happiness is illusory
as sorrow is endless

Quietly withdrawing

Sometimes
I don't want to

不斷那樣

看見什麼

看見許多不可跨越的現實

愛上什麼

愛上一個想象

尋找什麼

尋找空無逝去的渴望

沒有什麼

沒有簡單易懂的幻相

以為的人生

不斷那樣

    Always Like That

What do I see

so many realities that cannot be crossed

What do I fall in love with

an imagination

What do I seek

a longing gone into emptiness

What is there

no illusion simple enough to understand

The life I thought it was

Always like that

寧靜的空拍

你我之間

記憶

寧靜的空拍

時間淡漠

不在

    A Quiet Aerial Shot

Between you and me

memory

a quiet aerial shot

Time grows indifferent

not here

速寫

圖：Lumicat

流浪的孤獨美學

無需人類知曉

只是離開

簡筆速寫

時間滌蕩了心靈

ta

粗糲空白

    Sketch

The aesthetics of wandering solitude

need no human to know

simply leaving

A quick sketch

time scours the soul

ta

a coarse blankness

藍色墨水

少年時代用過的鋼筆

咒語如詩

手機笑我凊彩講講

回憶是一瓶藍色墨水

六十五載昨日夢

   （* 凊彩講講 ，台語“隨便說說”ciencae  gownggorng，拼調式台語拼音字寫法請參閱我這篇《台語羅馬拼音字試寫》“台羅試”。台語“凊彩講講”與國語或華語普通話的“昨日夢”跨語押韻。slant rhyme / near rhyme(斜韻、近韻，英譯的whatever 與yesterday也是)。)

    Blue Ink

The fountain pen I used as a boy

spells like a poem,

while my phone laughs at me:

just saying whatever.

Memory is a bottle of blue ink.

Sixty-five years, a dream from yesterday.

沒什麼路用

自由妄念

想象與現實

一首詩

時間的影子

沒什麼路用

    Not Much Use

A delusion of freedom

imagination and reality

a poem

the shadow of time

not much use

只是經過

繆斯帶走了理性

清晨醒來
秋葉尚未落盡

ta只是經過

    Just Passing Through

The Muse took reason away

I awoke at dawn

The autumn leaves had yet to finish falling

ta was only passing through

不再神秘的自己

圖：Lumicat

我們之間的海洋

在東北季風裡
沒有彼岸

我們之間的天空

當夏夜來臨

只有此在

被遺忘的

心的唯一角落

一個不再神秘的自己

    The Self No Longer Mysterious

The ocean between us

under the northeast monsoon

has no other shore

The sky between us

when summer night arrives

holds only this presence

Forgotten

the heart’s sole corner

a self no longer mysterious

無法隱藏的遙遠

光的遁離

人間如此繁華

如是

風的穿越

森林默而不語

已往

ai是無法隱藏的遙遠

你猜想

醒後自然淡薄的

本來不在

    The Unhideable Far Away

Light slips away

the human world so splendid

so it is

Wind passes through

the forest silent and wordless

already gone

ai is the far away that cannot be hidden

you imagine

what naturally fades after waking

was never there to begin with

手機

自由消化了記憶

成為黑暗中看不見的波紋

忘卻ta的言語

昨天的暮色孤獨成癮

夢裡跳出耗電通知

    Phone

Freedom digested memory

into ripples invisible in the dark

Forgetting ta’s words

yesterday’s dusk addicted to solitude

A low-battery notification

pops up in the dream

本來從未來過

你只是人類
但人類不只是你

在幾乎究竟的一之後

你說話了

你又沉默了

是你

但你寧願當日作廢

你沉默了

你又說話了

本來從未來過

    You Never Came Here in the First Place

You are only human

but humanity is more than you

after the almost ultimate One

You spoke

then fell silent

It was you

but you would rather void that day

You fell silent

then spoke again

You never came here in the first place

隨身噪音

思想

人類的隨身噪音
害怕寂靜

即使做夢了

仍然囈語不休

唯有沉睡假死

深偽解脫

   —— 人類，連解脫都可能只是另一種噪音的生成。

    Portable Noise

Thought

Humanity's portable noise

afraid of silence

Even in dreams

the muttering never stops

Only in deep sleep, feigning death

deepfake liberation

   — Humanity, even liberation

may be nothing more than the generation of another kind of noise.

失憶的終點

圖：今天的池上大陂(大坡池)。走到終點，失憶，成爲另一個新的起點。

自我很小卻很大
加速墜落

戰壕裡的史瓦西

在演算中閃開了黑暗

無底深淵

別說驚人巧合

我們失憶的終點

    The Endpoint of Forgetting

The self is very small yet very large

accelerating into free fall

Schwarzschild in the trenches

sidestepped the darkness in the calculation

A bottomless abyss

don't call it an astonishing coincidence

the endpoint of our forgetting

* 我常常在詩裡提到黑洞，而關於黑洞，需要從愛因斯坦和史瓦西談起。以下是Lumicat對史瓦西的敘述：

自旋遊戲

自以為不是的自以為是

語言的輪盤賭局
欺騙了我們的眼睛
而眼睛遮蔽了心

白晝與黑夜的遊戲

斯斯有兩種

總有一天等到你

沒有維度的微觀自旋

(  * “斯斯有兩種”，語出台灣知名諧星豬哥亮在1990年代的一個名為“斯斯”的洗腦感冒藥台詞（斯斯，感冒鼻塞流鼻水狀聲詞），依配方及適應症分黃綠兩色包裝。 )

    The Spin Game

Thinking I’m not

thinking I am

The roulette game of language

deceived our eyes

while our eyes veiled the heart

The game of day and night

Sisi comes in two kinds

A dimensionless microscopic spin

will wait for you someday

(  * “There are two kinds of Sisi”—this phrase comes from a 1990s commercial by the famous Taiwanese comedian Zhu Geliang for a cold medicine called “Sisi” (a onomatopoeic term for the sound of a runny nose). The medicine came in two versions—yellow and green—based on their formulas and intended uses. )

阿爾法

倒計時

如果逆熵而行

回歸阿爾法

冥想之初

真理不再優惠

只有一

    Alpha

Countdown

if you move against entropy

return to Alpha

at the beginning of meditation

truth is no longer on sale

only One